lot of change, either. And itโs certainly not any fun.
And one more thing: Iโm kind of bored with the name calling, the midget, the Napoleon stuff, the โIโm a very available individualโ soundtrack, the blah, blah, blah.
At this point, none of that really serves any purpose.
Iโm almost 38 now, and Iโve made the many, many mistakes of growing up in front of you for the past 15 years (and that was NOT always pretty, four hours a day, five days a week I assure you!). Iโve gone from angry to belligerent, to frustrated to frightened to paranoid to indifferent to now, just plain sad.
But I want to be bigger than all of that today.
I want to simply cast one final public vote on how I feel and why I, personally, feel that way.
And today is a chance for everyone and anyone to speak their minds one time as a civic, united voice.
Wear black, wear purple, bring a sign, write a message, buy a shirt, tip a panhandler, buy a beer at a local pub, eat a sandwich and enjoy yourself.
Today is YOUR day! Letโs resign ourselves to having fun, enjoying the whole day, if not just simply sending a positive message to the entire sports and baseball world that weโre angry but we still love the BALTIMORE Orioles!
And if Peter G. Angelos and his family own the BALTIMORE Orioles into perpetuity, and continue to run it exactly in the fashion they have for the previous 13 years, thatโs OK too. Because Iโll realize that I had one final day, one final chance, much like on that day, and rich with irony that again, itโs against the Detroit Tigers just like in 1991, to think of my Dad, and 33rd Street and all the magic that I enjoyed the first 30 years of my life with the Orioles, who will then be referred to as my โfirst wife.โ
Today will be the official divorce for me.
I guess after today, Iโm officially now married to the Ravens, and we can just post-date the wedding certificate back to November 1995, because they really did have me, much like Jerry Maguire, at โhello.โ
The purple clouds, the beautiful field, the roar of the crowd, the taste and smell of the tailgate, and a chance at a glimmering, shiny silver trophy each year โ my new wife can give me what you never did, Mr. Angelos, a championship. And best of all, I actually feel like she hears me when I talk to her and adjusts in some subtle way, like she did after that 6-10 disaster last year.
Weโre growing together โ the Ravens and I โ through the good and the bad, as it should be. Weโre making beautiful music and memories together โ hell, weโve made two already in the past 10 days, which is two more than Iโve had with the Orioles over the last 10 YEARS!
I have the pictures, both mental and physical to prove it. The Ravens are calling to me and have been for a decade. Iโve heard it and felt it, but youโve ignored it and youโve ignored me and everyone in this town โ people just like me, with the same memories, the same pride, the same love of the Orioles and baseball but without a microphone or a radio station to voice their own displeasure about how unwelcome we all feel rooting for our own team.
But, I promise, youโve ignored me for the final time.
Itโs sad for me Mr. Angelos, but much like my Pop and I did to the Coltsโฆmuch like I did to my first girlfriendโฆmuch like I did to my, Pop, in 1992 in that casket in Essex, Iโll say one final goodbye.
Cause, I swear, Iโm not going back for more abuse or neglect from you and your franchise.
And hereโs why. Despite the fact that Peter G. Angelos has been a very charitable man in both political campaigns and in helping people with his money in this city, I only know of his name for one reason.
BASEBALL.
Mr. Angelos bought the love of my life and systematically wrecked her and my love for her.
Heโs a helluva lawyer, but those โlawyerlyโ wins and loses donโt add up to much when the public gets to register a vote, as theyโre doing today.
You canโt question the law: itโs right there in writing. Baseball in Ballโmer ainโt so simple, hon.
Heโs just been, simply put, a TERRIBLE baseball owner. Just terrible!
And he certainly appears to be (and again Iโve only spent 2 hours with him and that was 10 years ago) one of those guys who is never, ever going to give up or give in to doing the โrightโ thing and sell the team to Cal Ripken or Steve Geppi or Chip Mason or whomever?
Letโs be honest (and maybe brutally so): If Peter Angelos was a guy who routinely โdid the right thingโ regarding the BALTIMORE Orioles over the past 10 years, weโd never have been in this predicament and we could all be using today to fill the stadium to decide whether itโs us or the Tigers who is getting home field advantage in three weeks for the first game of the ALCS, right?
So, will the โright thingโ happen and will a power movement today by the citizens of Baltimore and the fans of the Orioles, bring upon some humility and dignity where heretofore there has been none?
Or will Angelos be so offended that he digs in even harder and continues to watch the franchise bleed from what Scott Miller of CBS Sportsline.com last week called, โthis self-inflicted gunshot wound?โ
I dunno.
But, geez, I donโt know that it can get any worse than it is. Iโve spent two years rooting against them and I honestly donโt even watch now and I wonโt be watching in the future to a team that I donโt feel at all welcome in supporting.
So, this is it for me: Iโm coming downtown, Iโm paying my $9, Iโm casting my final ballot, and Iโll move on with respect, integrity and